Dec 31, 2016

My Son Aryan & My Baby Avantika

Today is 31st of 2016. Both of you growing up fast. I have seen god in your eyes, in your hugs, in your smile, in your laugh, in your tender hands and feet, in your breath and in everything that make you.  I truly felt you are my  walking, living  talking god  who has come down to live with me.   I wanted to raise you in pristine environment  with values, virtues, ethics, compassion and love. so the you imbibe all the virtues for becoming a good person devoid of negative emotions. I dreamt of a future where im there with you always to guide you, believed that is my purpose in life.

Unfortunately you have been separated form me by evil who are only after money- some how by hook or crook extract money keeping you as hostage. little do they realize how crooked they are and how futile their malicious actions are. They will burn down with their own greed.

I'll wait for you  till the day you are grown up and where you are without fear come to your Papa.  I know  you come back to me.

I love you and miss you Kanna & Baby. My Prayers are with you to protect you from poisonous environment around you.


Your truly loving Papa. 

Thinking  of you Kanna & Budugum. You are so near but so far. All the demons that separate you from me and all the malicious evil that exits I pray for you everyday for your protection and well being. 

Precious Time

You have been robbed of precious time, love affection, experiences with near and dear ones. I love you and  i miss you . Merry Christmas!!

thinking of you

Dear Aryan Kanna and (budugum) Baby,
It has been months  i have seen you. it has has been 657 days since you were gone.  not a day, not a few minutes go by  by without thinking of you uttering your names. Every moment, I pray for your safety and well being, and protection of your innocence from constant mental poisoning negativity around you. Any normal child will be brainwashed.  I  see god & goddess in you,  hope and wish your inherent self protect you from the evil influences you are surrounded  with retain your soul.

I promising myself that i need to be  health healthy so that when you grow up and seek your father  I'm around healthy and fit. It will be another 4216 days for you to turn 18 ( 2028)  and 4937 for baby to turn 18 ( 2030).  So i need to be alive and healthy for another 14 years and beyond.  You are my true love, you are my first love  and i'll wait for you.  I promise you i'll will be alive and fit when you come to meet me.

Meanwhile i offered to the person holding you away from me   that i'll pay directly for everything for your better education ( best boarding schools- Rishi Valley or Lawrence Lovedale) but she is seeking seeking ransom.


I'll fight for you and i'll be fit and healthy till you come back to me. I love you and miss you. Your Papa.