Aryan ( Kanna, bujji nanna) & Avanitka ( Budugum Budugum)

Dear Budugum Budum & Aryan Kanna,

There are no words to capture my feeling of love and affection for you, and wanting to be with you and grow with you and see you grow up. I wanted to be the path in which you take your steps, capture all your innocent smiles, all your laughs, cherish every one of those moments.

People are dying in this pandemic - life today is gone tomorrow. I have made innumerable calls to connect with you, anxious about how you and Arayan are doing but my phone is blocked. Unfortunately, there are evil forces that sabotaged our bond, disconnected us, and destroyed us.

I love you and i miss you. 

Covid 19

Date 06 April 2020:

Dear Aryan Kanna (Bujji Nanna) and Avantika my Baby Darling (Budugudm Budugum),  

I am writing this to you during the most trying times of our lives. I don’t know if and when you will get to read this (probably when you are all grown up).

The World had faced with Coronavirus ( COVID-19)  in Jan 2020 a deadly pandemic that brought the whole world to a standstill. Millions are infected with it and 10’s of thousands of them had an unfortunate end. It initially started in China in December 2019, and rapidly spread to the rest of the world. India is on a curfew from March 16th, 2020, with people confined to their houses.

I was supposed to head back to the US and my flight was booked for 19.March.2020 and all flights were canceled due to this pandemic. I have come to Ongole ( your paternal grandparent's native town) for the funeral of my Aunt ( your grandfather’s elder brother’s wife)

When this pandemic broke out I was terribly worried about you as Mumbai is one of the epicenters for the outbreak in India. I had sleepless nights. I have sent you masks, sanitizer through amazon. I tried to call you innumerable times,  almost daily,  on your other Parent number ( and also her Parent's numbers as well). But these unscrupulous people blocked my contact with you using you as a hostage to extract money/ransom. They are trying to you to blackmail me and tried everything to severe our bond, and love and affection I have for you.

When you were little you both used to sleep on my chest and hug and sleep. I love you Kanna; I love you Budugum.  I miss you my dear little darlings. 

I will be waiting for you forever hoping one day you will come to your Papa!! I will be waiting for that day.

Your Papa.

rvmkrishna@gmail.com

Jan 14 2020

Dear Aryan Kanna and Baby Budugum,
Years have gone by but i am not able to meet you despite all my efforts laune in the court system; I will keep fighting for you. There are unscrupulous people who are holding you as hostage and in turn seek ransom; it  is worse than people on the street using their children for evoking sympathy; or kidnappers taking your children and demand ransom to give back your children. there you pay money you will get children back but here  they are keeping children to extract monies.

Those criminal deviant and evil minds  don't/can't understand nor don't care they are destroying your lives. Theres are worst form of criminals perpetrating child abuse.


Courts don't understand what is in your welfare, they don't understand what constitutes  welfare of the child. They operate based on presumptions and assumptions. They don't understand that they don't understand and it is the experts who deal with welfare of children - Child Psychologists who have to determine and set up base guidelines. they see child custody issues are childs play not important. 

Hi Aryan and Avantika,

I am at loss of words to say anything. years have gone by but my fight for you  has not stopped i quit everything and running after courts to see you and be part of you. I am fighting against the system. I keep fighting for you. Will never give up.

Love you Aryan and Avantika

Everyday I wake up early , yet still in  bed for hours with your thoughts  in my mind. I go to bed with you in my mind at night. I have so many precious memories of you, but you will live forever in my heart. Love - Your Papa

Dear Aryan & Avantika

Kanna Aryan & Baby Avantika,

In this world where is Bad there good right next;

Where there is Ugly they is Beauty right next;

where there is Evil there is Virtuous;

Where There is Despair there is Hope right next;

Where there is failure there is success right next;

Happiness in life depends on taking conscious decisions 

avoid all that is bad, evil and ugly minds.

Have Big Dreams

Dear Aryan and Avantika,
I have met you in supreme court mediation center, not an ideal place to see you and meet you and spend time with you, in between other waiting with other litigants in the cramped lobby. you have been completely brainwashed and felt distant and unable to connect given to poisonous tutoring of a despicable mind. I still love you and miss you. your childhood was robbed from you and me.

All i can tell you have big dreams study hard and direct your energies towards it.  Achieve something in life. 

your Grandfather is sick and in hospital

Dear Aryan and Avantika,

Your Grandfather ( my father)  is ill and he is bed ridden from last couple of weeks. From march 1st he is admitted to Apollo hospital . Hope at least  he sees you both before he passes away.

You have been held hostage and cut off  without access to your other half of your Family.


Your Loving dad. 

Supreme Court Chance of meeting you

Dear Arayan ( Kanna, Bujji Nana, Bujji Kanna, Aryan Kanna) & Avantika ( Baby Darling, Budugum Budugum) ,
I love you and cherish every moment I spent with you. I live with your memories thinking of you and longing for you. Somewhere you are the angels with whose blessing i am alive and survived an a scheming murder attempt on my life on 28.Aug.2018 by some real Evil Bastards and Criminals - all for Money. One thing for sure their  evil designs will not succeed, they will burn in Hell. Their evil and poisonous mind will burn them inside out. I Pray God that you be protected from those evil people swirling around you. 

On 25.Feb.2019 The Supreme Court has directed bring that you be brought to Delhi to meet your Papa!!! I am eagerly looking forward to it,  to meet you,  hug you and hold you both in my arms.

02/11/2019: Indian Supreme court

Dear Aryan and Avantika, My darlings and my little Angels,

Tomorrow Supreme court India will hear couple of matters relating to whether you can see,  meet and spend quality time with your father.  I hope they have time to fathom fact from fiction  and see through farrago of distortions, misrepresentations, insinuations, blatant lies are being peddled as Gospel of truth by an evil mind. I pray for all of us. 

Importance of Marriage and consequences of marrying a wrong person

Dear Aryan & Avantika,

You might not understand this now but you will when you grow up.

There are two things in life that we have control over : (i) one is Education & Career, (ii) the other is Marriage. Rest everything else we don't have much control.

- Understand your Education is the founding stone on which your personality and career is built, it is a ticket to decent  life and living. Second most important is your life partner. It is not the 2nd most important but THE MOST important thing. If you have a happy partner, and happy marital life you will  live decent and fulfilling life even with normal education and job. You will be content even if you don't have luxuries. You will enjoy simple pleasures in life and appreciate small things and above all memories you build with your loving partner and companion and your children.

BUT IF  you marry a wrong person ( GOD FORBID)  your  life will be a living hell,  and if you have children with such person, both your life and your children lives will be ruined. Your family lineage will be destroyed and your life may come to a premature end. It is worse than anything your will ever face in life. This you can never change. It will haunt you till death.

It is like planting  a poisonous  tree in your house and eating its poisonous fruits. Nothing can cause more damage than such an evil person in your life. They will destroy you inside out. You can never appease them, you can never talk reason with them. They will slowly but surely become death on to you.


When you grow up, you just make sure you really have healthy long time relation before ever jumping into marriage. The sacredness of marriage is long dead, today people marry for various reasons most important is money/property not because they love you. 

Find people who are genuine, well educated ( that is to some extent measure of their stability), and happy and normal. Take long time years to get to know a person, just don't jump in given to few moments of nice talk. Exchange ideas, and share thoughts and you will eventually come to know a person whether you can live with that person or not. Give ample time may be years before you start living with someone. Always look for strong successful and compassionate person. Sympathize  with losers but don't marry them don't get into relationship with such person. Understand money and wealth is not the measure of success.

Read lots of books and good novels to know society and people. reading books broadens your perspective and it is like learning from others experiences both good and bad.

I love and i care for you and constantly think of you. But our lives are entangled with evil.

STAY AWAY FROM EVIL PEOPLE IF YOU WANT TO LIVE HAPPY. BEING SINGLE IS BETTER THAN MARRYING SUCH A PERSON. AN EVIL PERSON IN YOUR LIFE DESTROYS YOU INSIDE OUT, A SLOW BUT SURE DEATH, SO RUN FROM THEM.

I hope you read this one day before it is too late.

time is passing by

Dear Aryan ( Kanna) & Avantika ( Budugum Budugum)
I hope one day you grow up search for you Papa and may stumble upon this blog. Hopefully you will be able to understand  the loss and trauma your Papa suffered missing you, your childhood and constantly thinking of you. You are the reason papa was living for.

Some vile people  in order to fulfill their 'perceived' vengeance don't mind destroying children's lives, rob their childhood, poison their mind against their father, sever parental bond such people are  worse from evil, criminals to the core.

Grieving for you

Dear Aryan ( kanna, bujji nanna,bujji kanna )  & Avantika ( baby fellow, my budugum budugum,  my darling baby ) 


“Grief never ends… But it changes. It’s a passage, not a place to stay. Grief is not a sign of weakness, nor a lack of faith… It is the price of love.”

— Unknown

All my efforts to be with you in your lives have come to to a slow grinding halt.

Dear Aryan ( Kanna)  and Avantika ( Budugum Budugum)
I love you. I miss you and i think of you every single minute. I have moved courts,  heaven and earth to be part of your lives but in this slow moving morass of system, Justice is a mirage.  In this world everything is guided by vested interest. Rarely you will come across someone with values and ethics. I wanted to give you the best the world can offer and i can offer ( a well rounded upbringing, with love affection, values and education so that you succeed in life and people around you around to be in your company.)
Your loving Papa.

You are the Purpose of My Life

Dear Aryan & Baby  Darling!
You are the Purpose of my life!!! You always will Be. 

Mindless offer

Aryan ( Khanna/Bujji Nanna)  & Avantika ( Budugum Budugum/Baby Darling)

I have got an offer from your other parent who holds you and your future as Hostage. It not an offer, it's a mindless Criminal Blackmail, She wants Ransom  to settle cases, i.e  she will remove false criminal cases she foisted against me and your paternal Grandmother ( Nanamma) , your  Aunt ( Atamma).

First of all your father will NOT  succumb to anything where your interests are no protected; You Need your Father's Love, Affection and Bond. Someone who cut that bond  without Remorse is psychopathic criminal and such person is not your interest. THIS is the Person who planned to Murder your father for his insurance Money. Secondly,  I'll NOT, SUCCUMB to Any Blackmail COME WHAT MAY.


“The path of the righteous man is beset on all sides by the iniquities of the selfish and the tyranny of evil men and women. Blessed is he, who in the name of charity and good will, shepherds the weak through the valley of darkness, for he is truly his brother’s keeper and the finder of lost children. And I will strike down upon thee with great vengeance and furious anger those who would attempt to poison and destroy my children. And you will know my name is the Lord when I lay my vengeance upon thee.”

Forever, 

Your Loving father

Fighting against the System

Aryan Kanna/Bujji Nanna & Baby Darling, my Budugum Budugum Avantika baby

I am fighting against the system to ensure you have access to your father, his love affection care and guidance, above all your precious time to bond and grow, feel normal that you have a loving father who loves and breaths for you.

The system is biased, words have no meaning, anything can be twisted to mean whatever powers that be  want mean.

• "Best interest of child"  means being with mother no matter how cruel and deviant that person is. Despite she cutting off children from their father. 
• One hand they talk about Gender equality on the other say  "Abala Nari. "
• Role of Father in the life of children is only given lip service. it is almost equated to play thing. 
• Word Justice is a 7 letter word it means nothing, when system is over loaded, laws made complex and complicated, and made with vote bank politics in mind. 

Kanna Aryan and Baby my Budugum Budugum ( it means bubbles ) I am doing every possible thing, a one man army fighting against the systemic prejudice with in the Law and administration of Law.  I hope and pray that you grow up Normal and Happy.

Aryan Kanna & Budugum Budugum,

Every passing day I keep thinking of you and missing  you. I get up with your thoughts and go to bed with your thoughts.  You are always in my thoughts and back of my head.  Knowing that you are growing up with most vicious criminals who are worst human beings one can ever came across my life, they can stoop to any levels for money, to an extent of planning to kill your father and throw him from 5^th floor for his for money. It bothers me to no end , and as to what will happen to you and how you will turn out to be? What morals, values and ethics will you grow up with such people.  

You both were born as angels. I don’t know how god looks like but I used to see god in you both, you are my god and goddess. Jumping, laughing running around, playful and blissful, full of innocence. You are the ones  I  live for, and the purpose I live for.  I miss you to no end and want to do everything for you so that you have stable and blissful life with innocence, and all the goodness in the world.

I am waiting for the day I will meet you. 

Yours Ever loving  Papa

Aryan - Kanna Happy Birthday

Hi Aryan
Happy birthday!! Kanna I miss you and i love you. You and baby are the two people im living for. one day i'll meet you and hug you. I miss you  Nanna.