so happy to spend time with you

Nanna, Happy to see you and spend time with you. I was worried that you might not be able to recognize me. But its so heartening to see you run towards me hug me and glued to me all the three days i was with you.  When your Nani asked where is your papa you pointed towards me!! Its so fulfilling to hear you constantly say papa! papa! and papa! On one hand i'm immensely happy to see you and see how playful you are, while on other there is sense of immense loss, don't know what the future hold for you, and me, and how long this bond would continue. At best i'm a visiting farther visiting once a month for few days, with limited influence on you. the dreams i had about you and how i wanted to grow old  and see you grew up in to a able young man have slowly but steadily fading away. There is sense of  deep loss. However much i try to keep myself detached it is seems impossible to do that. I have little control on how fate unfolds. Just pray for well being and happiness.

your loving father
Krishna