Aryan Kanna & Budugum Budugum,

Every passing day I keep thinking of you and missing  you. I get up with your thoughts and go to bed with your thoughts.  You are always in my thoughts and back of my head.  Knowing that you are growing up with most vicious criminals who are worst human beings one can ever came across my life, they can stoop to any levels for money, to an extent of planning to kill your father and throw him from 5^th floor for his for money. It bothers me to no end , and as to what will happen to you and how you will turn out to be? What morals, values and ethics will you grow up with such people.  

You both were born as angels. I don’t know how god looks like but I used to see god in you both, you are my god and goddess. Jumping, laughing running around, playful and blissful, full of innocence. You are the ones  I  live for, and the purpose I live for.  I miss you to no end and want to do everything for you so that you have stable and blissful life with innocence, and all the goodness in the world.

I am waiting for the day I will meet you. 

Yours Ever loving  Papa

Aryan - Kanna Happy Birthday

Hi Aryan
Happy birthday!! Kanna I miss you and i love you. You and baby are the two people im living for. one day i'll meet you and hug you. I miss you  Nanna. 

Happy Birth Day

Dear Avantika ( I lovely call you Budugum Budugum means bubbles) . Today is your 6th birth day.  I hope and wish that you had great birthday. I miss you and excruciatingly painful to think another birthday of your your passed by without me. I love yo and miss you. 

Dear Aryan ( My Kanna) and Avantika ( my budugum budum, my baby darling)

Dear Aryan & Avantika,

I will fight for you for your unadulterated access to your loving father. I'll not abandon you till my last breadth. I love you , i miss you every day every minute. yout future your well being is are the purpose of my life. 

Waiting for 28th March 2018

Dear Aryan & Avantika

The Court Ordered that you both be produced in the Court. I'm hopeful and earnestly eager to see you. May be you will be brought to court may be I'll see you will be able to  recognize me. I love you i miss you i long to see you. Hopefully deep in the heart you will long to see your father. 

mentally deviant people

Dear Arayan & Avantika

In life you will come across different kind of people the Good, the  Bad and the Ugly(in thoughts and deeds) . Steer yourself clear from the last two and  avoid them at any cost. they will do no good to you ever.  They are absolutely worthless, they have no inherent value,  and only thing they can do is burn you down,  destroy everything good around them. Such people are dangerous, they love none and they can love none. They use everyone, for them everyone is a tool to achieve something, They have zero self worth. They constantly plan to deceive others, extract  a living out of such deceit. They are the scourge on families and societies. They are poison like poisonous tree  and destroy family lineage.

I know you are too small to realize this now but eventually you will grow up and come across various people, i just pray god  to protect you such people and influences. I pray for  your purity of thought and mind.



Your Father, 

It has been a while

The more I see the world the more I realize how cruel it can be, how lives, hopes are wiped out without any reason nor rhyme. Everyday I pray for your protection i pray for your safety and i worry and sometime i wonder what you are,  how you are doing. A forgotten father, not sure if it ever registers in your mind or think of your missing father and ponder why he is not around  ( in spite of all his efforts).   we are caught  in a virtual prison of bias and injustice greed and malaise. justice in this world is rarest commodity. unless you  take care of yourself and protect yourself no on will. The worse form of abuse is when you are used as tools of extraction racket for money, perpetrated by greed and malice,   it is worse than child labor and abuse. they are no worse criminals than who perpetrates such abuse. Such people are sick.

I only hope you are free and happy devoid fear, anxiety and uncertainty. i only hope you grow stable strong and devoid of any harm. I know you are fragile vulnerable  and cant exercise your mind to figure out right from wrong, good from bad. you are always in my thoughts and time will come, it surely will come when you will meet your father. will wait for that day.   

With love,  your Papa!