The day you left

Dear Arayan and Avantika,

Papa loves you. You are always in my mind. Just waiting to see you, talk to you. I miss you Aryan nanna, I miss you baby darling. House is full of your toys,clothes,  you memories, 

to Aryan and Avantika

to Aryan and Avantika

It’s been more exactly a month since you and Avantika (our little baby darling) was taken away from me by the manipulations of courts and law. None of these lawyers judges have time or energy to get to bottom of the truth. All happened in matter of minutes and you were gone.  You have been with me for 10 months, doing well flourishing here with friends, and Montesoori  school where you and Avantika made good friends and a proper structured routine- away from the turmoil and psychotic behavior.  

There a vacuum in the house, can t believe what happened can’t get to terms with it.  Yes I long to see you and baby. More than I’m scared of your future, how our life will turn out to be.  What kind of brainwash she would to innocent minds. I always pray for your safety , security and well being. 

meeting you before depavali

Dear Aryan,
I'm writing to you after i met you in Mumbai on Last week ( Nov 4- Nov 9th) . I could spent 3 days with you.  I have seen drastic change in our personality, being a small kid, it just a  reflection of bad environment you are growing up. And i'm deeply concerned about it, and being a hapless parent who don't have any control on your future. There is nothing i could possibly do as your mother controls my access to you.

I was so sad and broke down when you are crying for me at the airport while i'm leaving to hyderabad. You wanted to come with me crying inconsolably , i requested your Mother to send you with me  as anyway she was planning to come to join me in hyderabad in few days. She refused budge. And however painful it is i had to put you back in her car.  I felt so terrible and helpless.

Here i'm in hyderabad waiting and hping to to see you.

your father

dear Aryan

Dear Aryan Aanna,
Its been a while since I last saw you.my life and fate has been altered irretrievably..I feel terrible loss with out you around. But there not much i can do...i'm trying to pull up socks and be useful to the needy and thereby add some meaning to my life and existence. I look at others who are more unfortunate than me, the one who have lost there dear children and still trying to live, and I feel some solace looking at them and thinking at least you are safe and alive, I  still have the hope that one day you will come to see me( I only hope that day comes before i die).

There are so many dreams i built around you, playing with you, teaching you & riding bicycle with you, going for swimming, teaching languages, sciences and maths, taking you with me to see the world, or just to be with you and grow old with you, and one final day just rest in your lap pass way from this world with peace and content. I have downloaded so many books and so  many amazing programs that i wished you  read and watch. I used to plan every little thing with for you - the schools you need to go , the clothes that look good on you. But all these dreams evaporated in to a thin mist and nothing left.  You have been constantly at the back of mind, you still are, forever you will be.

Dear Aryan,
Im writing this after a long time.  Many things happened. Your mom wanted to give it one last try for 6 months to save this marriage for you and now born sister of yours. I gave in, in spite realizing that she is twisted in her mind and nothing will change,  as your the one for whom i breath. So that i can be with you 

How are U Nanna

Bujjinanna,
Hope you are doing fine....blissfully unaware of the tragedy that has befallen on us. I constantly think of not thinking of you but there lies the irony. You are in all my prayers, I pray for your happiness, your proper growth and i'll be happy when turn out to be a able young man one day- Honest, Genuine, successful, balanced, good at heart and loves everyone around devoid of any hatred or ill will. I pray for that.